Happy Birthday Dear Jason Tan !

! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR !

Wish you have a good celebrate in today !

Cause I was forget about it.

So sorry!

Anyways , tomorrow I will take the present for you!

Hope you like it!

It is very expensive present !

If you spoil it!

I KILL YOU!

haha...

Last , Happy birthday!

Hehe..M ~

Have a nice day~

I feel very down .

I felt very down now.
My tears keep droping.
Because of you.
Why I so like you?
Just a few months my heart are followed you already?
Everything that you did made me wanna to remember it..
What you like,
What you love,
What you care,
And What you want.
I really fall in love to you already.
Before I love Nic.
But now all is about you.
Today night ,
I felt so hurt .
I felt that you're not like me.
Just only I like you.
I misunderstanding it.
You like her not me.
I felt so disappointed .
When i heard you and her had a contact and like very closer ,
my heart liked had a biggest stone in my heart can't beat again.
So hurt .
Why?
I really don't know.
I thought you're like me but is not.
Why?
I really want to share my life with you,
But you're not want it .
Maybe you're think I'm just a little girl , stupid girl , crazy girl.
I not good for you right?
Yea ....I'M THE MOST WORSE IN THE WHOLE WORLD!
Why ?
Why you eyes are not watching me every times ?
You just like a Cool air.
Always let me felt that you are mystery ,
And the cool air let me felt so lonely.
I try before let you know that I like you.
But abruptly you acted like you're hate me and felt that I'm annoyed you.
I hate this feel, that you thought.
Why you sometimes you so care about me?
Let me feel so good ?
But all is fake!
I hate that you're not honestly .
I hate it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Maybe I'm not good looking to attractive your's eyes to watch me .
So , i decided to give up .
Really scare hurt again.
So Kelly wake up!
Don't fall in love a guy in your life anymore!
It is make you cry so pity!
Be strong!
Don't always hope that he will beside you and help you , care you , like you , want you and need you!
Forget about that .
You need a new life to go all the places to have a good moment !
It is last time , I cried because of you.
After today , you and me are disappears in our own ways.
Back to the reality .

What happened to me?

Why abruptly I became like this?
I hope the time run faster a bit..
Let me forget about it.
Past things always let me miss it.
I really miss when I was a child .
Nothing to think.
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Bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye!

Baby.

Can I become a baby?

Won't grow up and everyday just play cry and sleep.

Can I?

I want wash my mind .

Like computer delete it.

Can I?

I can't pretend anything didn't happened .

No , I can't.

Maybe I should listen you say what is the truth, 

But I think the answer is same .

We're always not the same.

Yeah.

Maybe some one else are better than me more and more and more.

You did a good choice.

Lucky I'm not in the game .

If not i really don't know how I  pretend also...

But you're damn faker.

Before that I don't know anything .

Now I knew.

I won't drop into the hole again.

I believe myself !

We come from the start and now we're walking back to the begin.

We come from the start and now we're walking back to the begin.
Everything just like a dreams.
In a day , My mind was changed .
You And Me .
Back to the past.
Not like before anymore.
Sometimes , I will think about it.
Did I really ...?
Finally I knew the answer.
The answer is ours relationship status just like a good friend.
When you treat me as your baby .
I feel so good.
But when you're angered me .
I feel so scared.
Everything just a misunderstood.
So now we get back to the start.
I found is not just a way.
It has two way.
So we walk back our way.
Don't misunderstanding again.

What you care?

What you care of me?
I know just a normal status relationship.
I don't know.
Maybe everything is the god made it.
More complicated for us .
So leave me alone.
Don't come beside me.
Let us relationship end up.
So thanks everything happiness that you give .
Now my mind more confuse more pressure .
Time gone so fast but I still standing there.
Appreciate every second please.
We're getting older more mature ady.

Boring holidays!!!

This holidays really boring .
I can't stand anymore already...
God save me please...
Hope parents can bring me out from this home...
Haiz...my home printer spoil already...
how to print out my folio?
Crazy man...
Haiz.....sad...
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You two are good for me but which one Is match for me?

You there?

Are you there for me every moment?
Are you there for me when i need you?
Why abruptly you change?
So sad for me .
I'll be wait for you every second .

Happiness

I was so happy today!
Because I hang out with my friends Jaycee , Nicholas , Ker Zhen and John .
First we go and watched movie ...( Alice in wonderland)
If you ask me how was the movie?
Ern.....Okay la...nothing special for me..
Feel very boring .
And the Alice looks like a girl are same school with me . She is form 5 now.
Watched finish . Go to Redbox .
Then walk around .
Go back to Redbox and start our K!
Haha...begin I was wondered about guys will sing or not .
Wow...is so surprise they are don't care anything and sing song !
So high and so happy!
Had a lot of fun there.
1st My hand put inside the food are eating by nicholas.
Haha....i not deliberately one...so sorry...but he still eat it!
Second we sang Lady Gaga song like hell and the MV is so terrible .
3rd Jaycee blocked the view of them are singing the song.
....
So happy!
Sing finish ady ...
Then we go shopping.
Jaycee and I was bought a pair of shoe .
So nice and adorable .
Haha...we're  not enough money and borrow from our banker !
NICHOLAS LIM ENG CHEE!
He so lcly...
cause I ask him to borrow me 2o something .
You knows what he said?
If you want borrow you just can borrow 50 OR 100!
What?
He said easily to remember wor...
What a excuse ...
Nvm...
Then we bought ady...
Then the Nic asked us want buy coffee or not then we said you belanja ar?
...
The abruptly John said he BELANJA us!!!!
I was shock ady...
Then two of us go buy...
After that Nic and John want to go back home ady....
Then we said goodbye to each others ...
After  a few minutes I call my dad come and fetch us back home.
Back home...
Jaycee followed my family to eat dinner...
Then chit chat...
Then she go back...
Then good night!
A day of story is EnD!

Again.

Again and again and again.
How many times you just want to wake up?
I really don't know!
I hope i can be a little baby .
Don't know everything..
But why you let me heard it?
I really rather suicide .
Cause is so hurt to me.
Maybe you didn't feel it.
How could you do that to us?
Am I important in your life?
Or you just make use of me?
A lot of question hide in my heart .
But I can't ask it.
Why?
Can you tell me the truth?
You Non-stop hurt me .
I love you so much .
Do you know?
Hope you know about it!
If I say I LOVE YOU to you ,
Do you feel touch?
I LOVE YOU forever !
I won't hate you .
Cause you're the one who I the most Love.
Take care !

Thanks.

Thanks a lot !
If today you three don't accompany me i think i will die and so boring!
Today i felt so happy because you three are very funny and disgusting.
I really can't eat the food anymore LOL.
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Thanks teacher !
For you gave me a lot of information .
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Thanks My God !

Pain!!!

Today school had a injection for us (class 3E).
When i knew it , I was nothing .
But we all line up and walk to the bilik kesihatan .
My heart was beating so fast....
Then I was the second person go into the room.
First , the nurse check my fingertips then going to die!
I not dare to see the inject how pain and long!
When the nurse take it out ,
OMG!
It was so pain !
I also scream ady...
After that my hand can't even take my shoe also too pain ady...
I throw my shoe to my friend GKZ.
He so bad !
He take away my shoe ....
Maybe he doesn't know what i mean.
Fine, wore my shoe...
Abruptly , Jaycee she felt so suffering and wants to vomited.
I told my class teacher.
Teacher said :" If she felt so uncomfortable call her's mother come and take her back home".
Then I accompany her to office call Jaycee's Mother.
My hand also painful.
Still want to care of her.
See how good Am I ?
Haha...Jaycee must say PUI!
Haha...
Because of her I didn't go to recess also.
Cause really not enough time let me eat anymore.
I decided give up.
Back to the class to take her's school bag .
When we going to the class.
We just know the class was locked!
How we take it out?
Become super woman also can't la...
Break the window ?
Impossible to do that.
Then we met Jason Tan.
Talk talk talk....
When the recess is over .
I saw Desmond and call him to take her bag to the office.
My hand can't take it ady...
Back to the class,
So boring and sleepy....
When it was art period , Me and GKZ ....and a lot of people play ,
Truth Or Dare!
So funny and crazy....
Me and GKZ like enemy keep torture each others !
haha....
After school i standing at the bus stop wait for my Aunt come fetch me back home.
I saw Jason , Andrew and Foo Ken then we said bye ...
Suddenly , Jason came back.
I felt so curious go and asked him.
He said waited for Kenneth wor...
After that , Andrew came also =.=
Andrew talk with Jason and said Don't KAO LUI.
=.="
We talk a while .
My Aunt came ady!
The JASON TAN hit my hand!
OMG !
My hand just don't have pain ady .
Now pain again . !@#$%^&
Yeah!
Finally , Back home!
Wow!
So tired !
Slept a while then go bath..
T.T...
Until now my hand still pain
I want revenge !
Jason Tan you beware!
Huh....
Haha...
End.

Feelings like gonna to die

This few days I felt so unhappy and i feel my life sucks!
Because i did something that i can't forgive myself .
But Who can forgive me?
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Today Jaycee told me something!
Oh My God!
Why abruptly will become like this?
What was happened ?
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I really don't know what Could I do for now.
Facing you ,
My eyes will have tears inside there.
But i can't let it drop down.
A lot of things between us.
But you never want it.
So I need to wait?
But I decide to give up.
Cause Too suffering .
Maybe you didn't feel it.
Cause you never care about it.
The left is just have our memories.
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End .

Talk on the phone

Yesterday we talk on the phone ,
Very happy and funny.
Long time we didn't talk , chat and meet.
Haha...you very funny and cute.
You just like my brother.
I like you talk to me.
Haha...
And i hope you can come back to...
If you need help , my hand will always be there for you.
Just see you want or not.
Maybe you will feel I busy body.
But i really treat you as my brother.
And I also hope you will good .
Be happy dear.
End.

Hope

I hope we can be back like last time what relationship status we are.
Today , maybe i have some no manners so sorry about it.
Anyways I just hope you don't misunderstanding me and Jaycee...
Please don't trust that you heard from others..And I really won't did it !
Cause is too impossible !
What I play boy's zip?
OMG!
How the girls can said it to you?
Does she has brain to think?
But you trust it.
I felt so disappointed, because our friendliness can because of some rumor and broken.
I hope the girls can shut up your fuck mouth .
Please do not say anything that you imagine on your dreams when you are hate me.
All is stupid idiot foolish nonsensical and it is absurd !
Said I became E class student like feel myself very standard or high class...
Haha ....
Do you know what is high class what is standard?
Haha....o...you felt i'm a standard and high class people?
So you jealous?
Please don't always thought me like this la...
Very funny la...
I will shy one...
Go F*** la...
If you think you're correct come and see me and stand in front of me say everything that you told Agnes!
Come on...I will be waiting for you everytime even Night!
Why i abruptly waste my time to say about you?
Last,
I hope Agnes can feel it what we really treat you as...

Exam was over!

Yeah....finally can relax now....
Before exam everyday when i slept was very late .
And everyday felt tired and no mood .
Of course no more nervous but now i was worrying my result...
Hope i can get a better result....No more C lol...
Every time the result must CCCCBBBBA Less A
T.T
Why i so stupid ?
I know what i will get this result cause i never really hard working on my study...
I simply study get this result..
If i really hard working ...
Wow...I think must get straight A!
Haha....but i won't .
Cause i lazy...this is the only one reason why i'm so fatty!
I don't want be a loser...
So PMR....i will pay more hard to study .
Hope i can do it!
Say so easy but do it so hard !
Now better than last year , cause last year when examination i just do revision..
Ordinary ,  I play sleep and eat...
So lame...
This is I will study lol...
hahah....
Nothing to say already .
Goodbye my friends!
Muacks!

My dearest Jaycee

Thanks Thanks Thanks!
I feel so happy because of you Jaycee...
You can't imagine how happy and excited for me...
Haha.....
And recently, something was happened .
Make me feel curious and annoying.
What Could I do for now?
Forget about it...
Haiz....I asked my friends ...
He said Is my brain think too much ..
Why Is me think too much ?
Why the truth is not i thought ?
Why will be like this?
Why ? Why ? Why ?
Who can answer me?
After tomorrow examination is over yeah!
But i don't have confident to get A result in my test.
Hope can get a better result in my test.
And hope some people don't laugh me when i get bad result.
Last , Thanks dear Jaycee...
I love You
Muacks!